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Thursday, May 14, 2009
Stephie's yard in the springtime 09
So Lovely that Spring has finally begun to show itself!!! Makes me smile :-)
Sunday, January 11, 2009
Today I am feeling both blessed and cursed and sad...
Theo (my first born) is getting married next week. I'm blessed that he has found a truly lovely lady to spend his life with ~ Ryoko really is a special lady! She takes such good care of Theo & he seems so contented. It's such a pleasure to be around them and see the love and silliness, the up moments and the down, they always seem to find each other in their daily life, seem so bonded and so in love...
I am sooo thankful that her visa was finally approved, she is coming to America on her 26th birthday. Theo has been waiting and planning this day for so long, I just know that Ryoko is going to love the reunion (and the surprises) too ;-)
I am cursed and saddened because I can not afford (Boise to Long Beach) to go to the "justice of the peace" wedding... My mind keeps trying to think of a way to go, a way to witness my only son's wedding, but alas, there is no way and damnit all to hell it makes me furiously sad!
We do have plans for a wedding party in July with her family (from Japan) and ours (from Boise) to celebrate their marriage, and while that is a really great thing, it's just not the same as sharing the moment!!!
When my second born (Stephanie) married Jeremy my heart nearly broke with all of the joy, happiness, shared commitment & reverence of those vows, the sharing of so much HOPE was beyond my wildest dreams. I will always remember the tears of joy that moment he lifted her veil and kissed "his wife"... We were all together and it was a big, big party. Theo was there & ALL of my brothers came and so many, many others, what a nice day that was!
In my heart I know that Theo & Ryoko are simply going to the Court House to get married but also in my heart I know that never again will I be able to "kiss the bride & groom" hug them tightly and wish them the best life possible; on the very first day committed to the rest of their life together. This makes me sad... I imagine it must be equally hard on Setsuko, maybe harder because she is a continent away from her daughter... hmmm, woe is me ~ I think not!!!
So, to end this rant I must say:
"Good luck, son ~ treat your bride with respect, love her deeply and forever and NEVER take for granted the bond that you both share, and the love that you now know."
Love all ways, mama
Theo (my first born) is getting married next week. I'm blessed that he has found a truly lovely lady to spend his life with ~ Ryoko really is a special lady! She takes such good care of Theo & he seems so contented. It's such a pleasure to be around them and see the love and silliness, the up moments and the down, they always seem to find each other in their daily life, seem so bonded and so in love...
I am sooo thankful that her visa was finally approved, she is coming to America on her 26th birthday. Theo has been waiting and planning this day for so long, I just know that Ryoko is going to love the reunion (and the surprises) too ;-)
I am cursed and saddened because I can not afford (Boise to Long Beach) to go to the "justice of the peace" wedding... My mind keeps trying to think of a way to go, a way to witness my only son's wedding, but alas, there is no way and damnit all to hell it makes me furiously sad!
We do have plans for a wedding party in July with her family (from Japan) and ours (from Boise) to celebrate their marriage, and while that is a really great thing, it's just not the same as sharing the moment!!!
When my second born (Stephanie) married Jeremy my heart nearly broke with all of the joy, happiness, shared commitment & reverence of those vows, the sharing of so much HOPE was beyond my wildest dreams. I will always remember the tears of joy that moment he lifted her veil and kissed "his wife"... We were all together and it was a big, big party. Theo was there & ALL of my brothers came and so many, many others, what a nice day that was!
In my heart I know that Theo & Ryoko are simply going to the Court House to get married but also in my heart I know that never again will I be able to "kiss the bride & groom" hug them tightly and wish them the best life possible; on the very first day committed to the rest of their life together. This makes me sad... I imagine it must be equally hard on Setsuko, maybe harder because she is a continent away from her daughter... hmmm, woe is me ~ I think not!!!
So, to end this rant I must say:
"Good luck, son ~ treat your bride with respect, love her deeply and forever and NEVER take for granted the bond that you both share, and the love that you now know."
Love all ways, mama
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
Snow days in Boise
As I look out my bedroom window it is a beautiful sight... Snow everywhere, the roads and trees are covered, some of the walkways are shoveled but not most of them. I remember loving snow days as a kid (all kids love snow days~no school). Now, while I think they are lovely, the reality of driving on the icy (ickey) roads is a sobering thought!
Tomorrow will be Christmas Eve. My thoughts continually run to my children and family, I wish that my brothers were closer, I wish that my son were still here, I wish that my little grand daughter would say my name! Oh well, if wishes were horses we'd all take a ride...
My parents are both long since passed on, if only I could share this morning with them...
The beauty of the season, brings sorrow I and joy to me; brings thoughts of days past and yes, of days to come... I feel lucky and blessed beyond reason... Thank you God for the life I have.
Merry Christmas and a Blessed New Year!
Tomorrow will be Christmas Eve. My thoughts continually run to my children and family, I wish that my brothers were closer, I wish that my son were still here, I wish that my little grand daughter would say my name! Oh well, if wishes were horses we'd all take a ride...
My parents are both long since passed on, if only I could share this morning with them...
The beauty of the season, brings sorrow I and joy to me; brings thoughts of days past and yes, of days to come... I feel lucky and blessed beyond reason... Thank you God for the life I have.
Merry Christmas and a Blessed New Year!
Sunday, December 7, 2008
My Sweet Son is coming to visit.......
I have never known and will never know a man so lovely as my son...
He is warm and kind, thoughtful and oh so giving! He is fun loving, occasionally a tad bit reckless, but never reckless with the love he shares. For me he will always be that little boy that said "We are rich mom! We're rich in love"... He was about 4 at the time...
His absence sometimes makes my heart ache so badly that it is a physical feeling. His pride and perserverence make me proud to be his mom... His zen attitude is often "too" zen for me.
I remember his birth' the 24 hours of labor, the terribly blue color he had, and the lack of clear lungs... I smoked heavily with Theo and guess what? Not only did he become a smoker but he was hard pressed to breath at all when he was born... I will always regret that I was so stupid when I was carrying him in my womb, how much grief have I caused him to endure?
I truly believe that he could have gone either way in those first few moments of life and somehow, I always felt that he made the choice to be a fighter, to go for life and all that it would entail for him, that he would take life and live it!
He has!
and I'm in love with his soul, his character, his person...
To both my children; I love you, mom
He is warm and kind, thoughtful and oh so giving! He is fun loving, occasionally a tad bit reckless, but never reckless with the love he shares. For me he will always be that little boy that said "We are rich mom! We're rich in love"... He was about 4 at the time...
His absence sometimes makes my heart ache so badly that it is a physical feeling. His pride and perserverence make me proud to be his mom... His zen attitude is often "too" zen for me.
I remember his birth' the 24 hours of labor, the terribly blue color he had, and the lack of clear lungs... I smoked heavily with Theo and guess what? Not only did he become a smoker but he was hard pressed to breath at all when he was born... I will always regret that I was so stupid when I was carrying him in my womb, how much grief have I caused him to endure?
I truly believe that he could have gone either way in those first few moments of life and somehow, I always felt that he made the choice to be a fighter, to go for life and all that it would entail for him, that he would take life and live it!
He has!
and I'm in love with his soul, his character, his person...
To both my children; I love you, mom
Friday, November 28, 2008
many blessings....
I am so lucky to have such a wonderful life...
Oh sure, I whine and nag a little but overall my life is peaceful and filled with loving and being loved... What more is needed?
Oh sure, a warm home, food & comfort are also needed but that is assumed in my life. Sound a little full of myself don't I? But, if you know me, you know that I take nothing for granted, my life has been filled with ups and downs, generally speaking though, never too "down" to handle, never too much to bear, so yes, I guess I feel quite blessed for the life of comfort that I now experience and enjoy....
My darling grand daughter has given me the need to live longer, the desire to feel more, the vision to see clearer...... She has given new meaning to how very special her mother has always been and how dear to my heart she will always be... Her mother, my daughter the future of all my dreams lies in her hands; I never realized how deeply she changed my life forever, at the very moment she was born that crisp June morning...
Yes, I have many blessings, I am blessed beyond belief and for that I will give thanks every single day~
mi amore, tido & stepedee... momma
Oh sure, I whine and nag a little but overall my life is peaceful and filled with loving and being loved... What more is needed?
Oh sure, a warm home, food & comfort are also needed but that is assumed in my life. Sound a little full of myself don't I? But, if you know me, you know that I take nothing for granted, my life has been filled with ups and downs, generally speaking though, never too "down" to handle, never too much to bear, so yes, I guess I feel quite blessed for the life of comfort that I now experience and enjoy....
My darling grand daughter has given me the need to live longer, the desire to feel more, the vision to see clearer...... She has given new meaning to how very special her mother has always been and how dear to my heart she will always be... Her mother, my daughter the future of all my dreams lies in her hands; I never realized how deeply she changed my life forever, at the very moment she was born that crisp June morning...
Yes, I have many blessings, I am blessed beyond belief and for that I will give thanks every single day~
mi amore, tido & stepedee... momma
Tuesday, November 4, 2008
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